One of my co-interns said that to me during my first week. And I think that that encapsulated how I felt about those first few days perfectly. I somehow felt like the day would never ever end. I wasn’t desperate for it to end. And I didn’t feel bored out of my mind. But it felt like the tasks were endless and so was the clock.
I somehow look up and it’s already 3 weeks in. Every day is still a challenge, but somehow I can’t place them anymore. And I don’t know if I like that.
Routine can be good and comfortable, but I don’t feel like I’m having that same growth I was having earlier. I am not scaling that same learning curve. Every day isn’t a brutal challenge, which is great. But it feels like I’m just fine tuning. And that shouldn’t be the case only 3 weeks into intern year. Because it doesn’t mean that I’ve grown up – just that I’ve stopped growing. I need to challenge myself more, to push myself more.
My personal goals for this week are to:
- Sign out the whole list 2-3x
- Exercise at least 15 min a day for 3-4 day
- Read 3-4 chapters of RR
- Talk to 1 patient at the end of the day, every day