I cannot wait to feel fully comfortable at this. I can’t wait to be like Kyle.
Today I messed up the first patient at sign-out dramatically. I was embarrassed. I got over i and still participated. Net sum not bad.
During the OR, I forgot how to put on the light handles and Steppacher had to take over. He laughed at me when I messed up a basic part of the case that he had just shown me. And then I redeemed myself slightly by figuring out the intention behind another part. Terrible. Net sum terrible.
In the cath lab, I forgot how to do a basic skin junction suture. And then I did the last 2 sutures well. Net sum: how am I still terrible will I ever feel natural?
It’s gratifying and frustrating and terrifying and annoying.
The Rootlets 