I just finished my first 24! It’s not relevant to this post, but I figured it should be commemorated. Good that I did – I was active and walking about and pre-emptively seeing patients. Bad – I tried to find work when I didn’t need to; I let nurses boss me around; I didn’t recognize operative peritonitis soon enough.
Anyway, Kyle once mentioned that everyone starts motivated and not everyone keeps that fire alive.
I am still motivated. But I can feel myself start to slip. I don’t work out and don’t even pretend to try. I haven’t meditated in weeks. I have stopped cooking. I barely study. I don’t even use the patient encyclopedia like I need to. These habits are critical for me being my best self and I am slowly going into survival mode. I need to catch hold before I fall.