I have ways to go in intern year – suturing, NGTs, antibiotics, etc – but I have started to slip into a rhythm in the day to day of intern life. Which is good. Comfort is good, or at least it feels good. But the steep learning curve of Vascular and Colorectal that forced me to study every night to try and keep up has started to level off. The algorithms are easier to remember. The drugs are more ingrained. The abbreviations are easier to recall and picture. And some days, that comfort feels a lot lot lot better than getting almost nothing right on a SCORE Q set or reading from a textbook on stuff I don’t know. So my growth becomes stunted and slowly levels off. And it feels so good in the brief moment, but I can see the disaster resident I’m going to become if I don’t pull out of this nosedive.