Month: July 2019

This week was better. And then it was terrible. And then it was ok. And then better. And worse. etc. Two steps forward, two steps back. For these last 5 days of vascular, let's aim for two steps forward and no steps back. Be consistently good. Consistently reliable. Consistently disciplined. I don't need to keep … Continue reading Consistency

Stop. Pause. Whatever you're about to say isn't that important. It's likely not an emergency. You don't have to say it...yet. Breathe. Think. Ask yourself - is this something I can figure out or find out? Why is this important? Why am I / are we doing this thing? Breathe out. You can probably figure … Continue reading Think About.

I cannot wait to feel fully comfortable at this. I can't wait to be like Kyle. Today I messed up the first patient at sign-out dramatically. I was embarrassed. I got over i and still participated. Net sum not bad. During the OR, I forgot how to put on the light handles and Steppacher had … Continue reading Some steps forward, some steps back

One of my co-interns said that to me during my first week. And I think that that encapsulated how I felt about those first few days perfectly. I somehow felt like the day would never ever end. I wasn't desperate for it to end. And I didn't feel bored out of my mind. But it … Continue reading The Days are Long, but the Years are Short

I asked her a question and I saw her raise her eyebrowns in quizzical frustration, turn AWAY, and NOT EVEN ANSWER ME. Even the med student saw it. Talk about being shamed. And for what? What is it worth? Is it so hard to be patient or decent? Does it cost you that much? Yes. … Continue reading Is it so hard?